Faith

Sometimes the feeling just comes in and hit you without warning. That my friends comes from Allah swt the all mighty all knowing. Experience it and be pleased with it because it doesn't come often. It is an indescribable feeling.

What do we expect???

A country that has its people free from being a slave to another country but still falls down on its knee in submission. 
A country that is fill with corruption. 
A country that is fill with unfairness. 
A country that is fill with man made laws that is one sided. 
A country that is fill with crimes. 
A country that is fill with violence. 
A country that is fill with poor people. 
A country that is fill with debts. 
A country that is fill with selfishness. 
A country that is fill with fanatics. 
A country that is fill with deprivation. 
A country that has lost its sensitivity and love. 
A country without people with national pride and love.
A country with citizens that have no idea about the country and her history.
A country that have her people waving the flag of another country more than her own.
A country that is dominated by people with money. 
A country that has lost all sense of rationalisation. 
A country that has no spirit of brotherhood.
A country fill with people that lost their neighbourhood ethics. 
A country that has her citizen down on its knees with no will to fight. 
A country that once before have her citizens participating in sports with only one purpose...  To win but now it's about the rewards that comes with every medal won.
A country fill with people with only money in their mind. 
A country that makes money out of the misery of its people. 
A country that has no values. 
A country with youngsters with no adab (manners). 
A country with youngsters that has no respect towards the elderly.
A country that have women carrying weapons..  Using vulgarity to threatened people.
A country that has lost its moral values. 
A country with her citizens that will not got out of their way to help another. 
A country with her citizens putting politics above the people. 
A country that lost people to love her like how she loves her people...

The only right thing that the people of this country did in this current foolish situation was to produce a good slogan for the 57th independence of this nation...  "di sini lahir nya sebuah cinta"...  Because here in this great nation I was born and I love my country so much.

I have no desire to favour the politics and all the parties in this country for it has forgotten the true purpose of its existence...  It was supposed to produce leaders to ensure the welfare of the nation and the people but instead it's main agenda was to squeeze the nation and the people for every last drop of its wealth.  Below is the lyric of the song.  I love every word of it especially...

Aku
Bukanlah seorang perwira
Gagah menjunjung senjata
Namun hati rela berjuang
Walau dengan cara sendiri
Demi cinta ini

Ku ingin kotakan seribu janji
Sepanjang kedewasaan ini
Ku ingin sampaikan pesanan
Aku lah penyambung warisan

As the lyric said,  I will continue to fight in my own special way. I will advice the people of this nation... I chose not to say the word "merdeka" but instead I'll replaced it with "I love my country".

Its not independence if we fail on what I stated above. Seriously,  are we really free and independent on thus land that we call my country???

For until people of this great nation learn to love this country and the people more than himself,  only then, will I shout the word Merdeka. Until that time arrive, I will refrain myself from celebrating independence day. I will however celebrate the fact that I love my country everyday for the rest of my life.

What we all need is for all of us to have the immense love for our country without hesitation and without reservation even for a second...

Disini lahirnya sebuah cinta
Yang murni abadi sejati
Disini tersemai cita cita
Bercambah menjadi warisan

Andai ku terbuang tak diterima
Andai aku disingkirkan
Kemana harusku bawakan
Kemana harusku semaikan cinta ini

Betapa
Dibumi ini ku melangkah
Keutara selatan timur dan barat
Ku jejaki

Aku
Bukanlah seorang perwira
Gagah menjunjung senjata
Namun hati rela berjuang
Walau dengan cara sendiri
Demi cinta ini

Ku ingin kotakan seribu janji
Sepanjang kedewasaan ini
Ku ingin sampaikan pesanan
Aku lah penyambung warisan

A bit of care and a whole lot of prayers...

Why do we care less???
Was it because we are selfish and we were born in a family where  being caring was never practice.

Why do we fail to see everything that happened around us and why do we fail to question the little things that troubles us.  We failed to see it.  We failed....

If we keep on living like how we are living now,  we would never find peace and we surely ain't gonna find trees of green and red roses too....

The way the trees are massacred,  they way they raped the jungle,  the way they throw rubbish in the river or drains,  I think they must  know something. They must know that there is another world called Earth but they are pretty hush hush about it... 

Honestly..  I am one person who never thought about this before but the day my son was born,  I started to think of the things that is happening and started to ask why...  You should start asking it too..  Why...  The findings are frightening. 

If we don't address the issues immediately, we better have a flying capabilities like superman to travel to another world...  Earth 2!!!

The Toughest Part In Life

Toughest part in life was accepting the fact that there was a problem with my confidence.  I hate and didn't want to admit it.  Embarrassed of that fact and when ego came knocking,  it was game over.  I battled it out although at the back of my mind the white flag was already raised. 

It took a while to built up the confidence.  It took longer just to admit that I had issues that requires immediate attention.  Friends couldn't help neither family or love ones.  It was a battle that I need to fight on my own and had to take the risk of either I give up or I die trying which I took the latter.... 

Things were getting bad.  I had no choice but to move forward and find all possible ways and means to solve my issues. Motivational books and CDs.  Online motivational dialogues,  pay per tips etc.  Even Rocky Balboa (all 5 parts) couldn't bring humpty together again.

After so many attempts that hit rock bottom and embarrassment that goes without saying,  I finally found it.  I remembered the saying always go back to your roots and I did just that just like what Bagger Vance said.

I used an old but used facility which I've left so many years.  I started my recuperation and after several hours I found it.... I found what I was searching for.  Nothing fancy and it was rough and tough but I did it.  I did it over and over again until I am assured that I know it by heart and I know I wouldn't loose it anymore... 

The perfect swing... Isn't golf amazing.... Everyday is an adventure..  Its like a box of butang baju melayu you never gonna know what colour you find.

Old age... I'm getting there.

Well "nothing last.." a saying that is often being used but often being misinterpreted. What's the true meaning?? Nobody really knows actually.  Different people will have different interpretation of that saying..  Unfortunately nothing is as the same as what we perceived it to be.

Celebration of certain occasions will have certain enjoyment and closeness to it.  Rekindling memories of those days when no one could comprehend their future.  I for one couldn't comprehend writing this at 3 am.. 
One thing that comes to mind was how old everyone are.  Even My wife is getting older and starting to complain of extra flesh that builds and stay without having any ticket to leave (don't tell her of this and hopefully she wouldn't read this).

Seeing how my nieces and nephews have grown and how old my siblings are brought me to realised that I was getting old and nothing I do could actually stop the time from passing too rapid.

How far have I've gone in my life?? No permanent scars or wounds but only the ones in my heart to show me that i have gone through it all before and now I have through one more which is old age.  It comes in phases and slowly in parts it takes my life away. Depressing??? Nope it's not as  depressing or bad as the word described but it sure feels like it...  Especially when you try to swing a golf club like Rory at my age.

No matter what wordings, sentences,  phrases,  quotations or speeches given to lift a person up and create an idea that he is as old as he thinks he is would not change the fact that age is catching up and the body could only put up with our desires to a certain degree than it breaks down.

Dreams at old age...  Non existence.  We had it but we didn't take it as what we should. Either way or whatever way we choose we will never know the implications of the path we didn't take. The only luxury we have is that we have enough experience to rationalise the choices we've made and justifies to ourselves.

I have never regretted  my life nor the path I took although at times my choices could have been better... Whatever I may get I would love to educate myself to live without any regrets and be satisfied with how it turns out although at times I do imagine myself as an emperor having 138 concubines but I am old and I am allowed to imagine for I have nothing else to do...

A Little Pavlova

I came back late and upon arriving, I was greeted by a smile that put my headache at bay... sat down and was served with this small whip lash dessert. ... without a courtesy invite to my wife... I dug in and as I expected!!!..... the whip lash was very exotic in its presentation. The fruits on top brought out the flavour of the whip... the sour taste flavours the sweetness of the dessert. .. I took a step further and explores the internal part of the dessert and it was mesmerizing. It melts in my mouth but still leaves the tingling feeling caress by the sourness of the fruit that leaves my tounge in a mood for more.  The whole dessert was called pavlova... and as unique as its called it shatters any memories that I have of other desserts. While expressing my feelings on it, I still taste the sweetness of the dessert as if its still in my mouth....  Jokes aside it still does... 

What is handshaking???

Well folks, oopppsss we did it again. Most of the time we meet or greet people with a handshake. It could be a soft handshake or even a firm one. It depends on the situation at that particular time and also the person that we are greeting. Needless to say, normally we don't bother that much how we do it. Its just sufficient doing it out of good manners.  What is the right way of doing it??? Does it matter... well it does to me.

There is not a day that goes by without me meeting and greeting people. Casual encounters or even for business purposes.  Irregardless of the occasion,  a handshake will always be the first good gesture that starts off these encounters. After doing this for a long time, you'll be able to tell the type of each handshake. Whether it is sincere, for show or even official. So folks,  be sincere in anything you do.  It takes a big heart to be able to give a sincere handshake.  Try to give one wholeheartedly and you'll understand what I mean and when you meet the next person try doing the same without reservation...