A bit of care and a whole lot of prayers...

Why do we care less???
Was it because we are selfish and we were born in a family where  being caring was never practice.

Why do we fail to see everything that happened around us and why do we fail to question the little things that troubles us.  We failed to see it.  We failed....

If we keep on living like how we are living now,  we would never find peace and we surely ain't gonna find trees of green and red roses too....

The way the trees are massacred,  they way they raped the jungle,  the way they throw rubbish in the river or drains,  I think they must  know something. They must know that there is another world called Earth but they are pretty hush hush about it... 

Honestly..  I am one person who never thought about this before but the day my son was born,  I started to think of the things that is happening and started to ask why...  You should start asking it too..  Why...  The findings are frightening. 

If we don't address the issues immediately, we better have a flying capabilities like superman to travel to another world...  Earth 2!!!

The Toughest Part In Life

Toughest part in life was accepting the fact that there was a problem with my confidence.  I hate and didn't want to admit it.  Embarrassed of that fact and when ego came knocking,  it was game over.  I battled it out although at the back of my mind the white flag was already raised. 

It took a while to built up the confidence.  It took longer just to admit that I had issues that requires immediate attention.  Friends couldn't help neither family or love ones.  It was a battle that I need to fight on my own and had to take the risk of either I give up or I die trying which I took the latter.... 

Things were getting bad.  I had no choice but to move forward and find all possible ways and means to solve my issues. Motivational books and CDs.  Online motivational dialogues,  pay per tips etc.  Even Rocky Balboa (all 5 parts) couldn't bring humpty together again.

After so many attempts that hit rock bottom and embarrassment that goes without saying,  I finally found it.  I remembered the saying always go back to your roots and I did just that just like what Bagger Vance said.

I used an old but used facility which I've left so many years.  I started my recuperation and after several hours I found it.... I found what I was searching for.  Nothing fancy and it was rough and tough but I did it.  I did it over and over again until I am assured that I know it by heart and I know I wouldn't loose it anymore... 

The perfect swing... Isn't golf amazing.... Everyday is an adventure..  Its like a box of butang baju melayu you never gonna know what colour you find.

Old age... I'm getting there.

Well "nothing last.." a saying that is often being used but often being misinterpreted. What's the true meaning?? Nobody really knows actually.  Different people will have different interpretation of that saying..  Unfortunately nothing is as the same as what we perceived it to be.

Celebration of certain occasions will have certain enjoyment and closeness to it.  Rekindling memories of those days when no one could comprehend their future.  I for one couldn't comprehend writing this at 3 am.. 
One thing that comes to mind was how old everyone are.  Even My wife is getting older and starting to complain of extra flesh that builds and stay without having any ticket to leave (don't tell her of this and hopefully she wouldn't read this).

Seeing how my nieces and nephews have grown and how old my siblings are brought me to realised that I was getting old and nothing I do could actually stop the time from passing too rapid.

How far have I've gone in my life?? No permanent scars or wounds but only the ones in my heart to show me that i have gone through it all before and now I have through one more which is old age.  It comes in phases and slowly in parts it takes my life away. Depressing??? Nope it's not as  depressing or bad as the word described but it sure feels like it...  Especially when you try to swing a golf club like Rory at my age.

No matter what wordings, sentences,  phrases,  quotations or speeches given to lift a person up and create an idea that he is as old as he thinks he is would not change the fact that age is catching up and the body could only put up with our desires to a certain degree than it breaks down.

Dreams at old age...  Non existence.  We had it but we didn't take it as what we should. Either way or whatever way we choose we will never know the implications of the path we didn't take. The only luxury we have is that we have enough experience to rationalise the choices we've made and justifies to ourselves.

I have never regretted  my life nor the path I took although at times my choices could have been better... Whatever I may get I would love to educate myself to live without any regrets and be satisfied with how it turns out although at times I do imagine myself as an emperor having 138 concubines but I am old and I am allowed to imagine for I have nothing else to do...